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msn ramblings

2009-12-02T19:30:00.001+08:00

Something funny for my dead blog xD
Anywya i didnt go out with klarance today instead i went to the library with qistina (:

This is the msn conv.

Louey Shock! says:
you dont mind if i add lionel and my bro KLARANCE!! right?
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
nah

Cheryl ; imma spammer xD has been added to the conversation.

Louey Shock! says:
clara this is cheryl
my best friend in sec sch
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
awesome. hiiiiii.
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
hey.
Louey Shock! says:
she's like you. trying to refrain me from jumping
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
truth or dare ?
Louey Shock! says:
wait!!!
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
im not refraining u
i just dont wanna be miserable
xD
Louey Shock! says:
wait for the boys
lol
clara?
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
there there children,dont fight.
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
im not a kid.
;[[
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:

Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
xD
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
I'm kidding. Dude. Where's the humor!
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
down the drain
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
I'm supposedly younger than both of you,.

Lionel has been added to the conversation.

Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
xD
Louey Shock! says:
i added dumbo (:
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
dumbo.
who ?
Louey Shock! says:
lol!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Dumbo?
Louey Shock! says:
lionel my friend
LIONEL!!!!!
where are you??
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
u mean the flying elephant ?
Louey Shock! says:
no
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
with big ears.
Louey Shock! says:
hey please
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
the disney one
Louey Shock! says:
clara you okays?
cheryl shush
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
yeah. i just. yeah.
Lionel says:
oh
Louey Shock! says:
now wait for klarance!!!!
Lionel says:
forgot you unblock
to*
Well well
What do we have here
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
truth or dare..
zz.
Louey Shock! says:
hey i addedc to play truth or dare
Lionel says:
zzz
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
truth or dare..
Louey Shock! says:
if you fight, i'll jump
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
zz.
Louey Shock! says:
wait for mr L4d2
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
jump but dont jump at school.

infected by l4d addiction virus..... has been added to the conversation.

Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
ill be haunted.
;]
Louey Shock! says:
klarance still busy?
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
evidently.
sigh.
i'm booooored.
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
truth or dare..
zz.
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Muhaha. Lets start first!
Saaaaaaaki.
Where thou art?
Louey Shock! says:
sorry vomited blood!!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
oh em gee.
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
wanna see a doctor.
Louey Shock! says:
okays since klarance is no where to be seen. we shall start
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
go mount eliza.
or something
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
no. Mount A.
My hospital. Yes children,your mommy here,owns it.
Thats why we're poor.

Louey Shock! says:
5 kids here , take attendance first (:
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
cheryl here.
zz.
Louey Shock! says:
poor?!?!
you're fucking rich
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Haha! I'm not laaaa.
Louey Shock! says:
okays lionel you alive?
fucking RICH!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Oh. I forgot. He isnt. *coughs. anymore.
Lionel says:
?
Louey Shock! says:
okays start
Lionel says:
Hey I got a life
infected by l4d addiction virus..... says:
er hi guys, im back
Louey Shock! says:
yay klarance!!!
okay finally can we start?!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
awesomeeeeeeeeeee.
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
just start it
Louey Shock! says:
5 kids here. louise, lionel, clarisse, cheryl and klarance
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
zz.
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
CLARA. CLARA. CLARA.
Louey Shock! says:
OKAY CLARA!!!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Dude. You forgot my name!

Louey Shock! says:
lol
yeah right
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
*clara boooooomz into emomood
Louey Shock! says:
hey dont make me side track
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Kiddingkidding. Let us starrrrrrt.
DIGRESS!
Louey Shock! says:
okay we go by age
so who's older than me?!?!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
I'm youngest here right? ):
Louey Shock! says:
yeah
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
im younger.
obviously.
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
really?
awesome!
Louey Shock! says:
clara = dec
cheryl = sept
klarance = nov
lionel = june
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
as in for jumping menace.
xD
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
LOL.
Lionel says:
wait so I'm first?
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
DUDEEES. CAN WE START?
Lionel says:
by god
Louey Shock! says:
so i start first
Lionel says:
oh
Louey Shock! says:
someone ask me truth or dare!
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
jumping menace is april ?
Louey Shock! says:
yeah
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
dare.
Louey Shock! says:
ask me!!!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
HALT.
COME TO A HALT.
How about.
We take turns?
Like.
Cause its gonna be chaotic.
Louey Shock! says:
yeah
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
if everyone asks questions at once
Louey Shock! says:
the boys are quiet
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
so shingz. so so so shingz.
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
yeah
Louey Shock! says:
klarance, lionel you there?
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
zz.
infected by l4d addiction virus..... says:
ya
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
emo kid. hmmmm.
Louey Shock! says:
where's chubby?
lol
Lionel says:
yes
Louey Shock! says:
okays
so this is the plan
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
fuck my hair. brb.
Louey Shock! says:
i start first followed by lionel, cheryl, klarance, and clara
OKAYS?!?!?!!?
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
zzz. im falling asleep.
yeah yeah
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
*nods
Louey Shock! says:
SOMEONE ASK ME TRUTH OR DARE!!!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
lets starrrrrt.
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
dare
no
TRUTH
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Oh God.
Isnt saki supposed to choose?
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
yeha
Louey Shock! says:
cheryl your suppose to ask me
i say truth
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
truth or dare.
ok.
Louey Shock! says:
TRUTH!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Awesome.
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
someone ask her.
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
LOL.
Okay.
I'll ask.
Whats your little 'i'm not gonna tell anyone i do it but i actually do it' thing?
Louey Shock! says:
okays?
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
dont give something like not handing or doing hmk. please.
Louey Shock! says:
oh
erm
well
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
weeeeel.
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
WHY ARE WE WAITING! CHANTS!
Louey Shock! says:
i dont really understand
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
TALK OR IL GLUE U AND THROW U OFF A SHIP.
xD
infected by l4d addiction virus..... says:
guys
i need go out
Louey Shock! says:
bye
infected by l4d addiction virus..... says:
like 2 hrs or so
Louey Shock! says:
sad
lol
infected by l4d addiction virus..... says:
sry guys bb
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Lol. Bye.

infected by l4d addiction virus..... has left the conversation.

Louey Shock! says:
lol
my bro bye bye
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Really really reeeeeally. Is *coughs even there?
Louey Shock! says:
lionel!
!!!
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
i doubt it
zz.
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
i'm dubious.
Lionel says:
brb
Louey Shock! says:
kays
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
thats. a good riddance.
Louey Shock! says:
i dont know how to reply
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
hmmmm.
Louey Shock! says:
change to dare
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
awesome.
i dare you to.
to. to. to.
nudge *coughs 20 times.
Louey Shock! says:
lol?
must i
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
yes.
i dare you to.
Louey Shock! says:
lionel you there?
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Nononooooo asking.
Louey Shock! says:
that means nudge
now
the whole conv
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
just do it - nike.
YEEEEEEP.
shit., imma gonan turn off my nudger

You have just sent a nudge.

You may not send a nudge that often.

Louey Shock! says:
lol
cant

You have just sent a nudge.

Louey Shock! says:
lol
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
2 down 18 t go
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
?

You may not send a nudge that often.

You have just sent a nudge.

[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
3 down 17 t go
Louey Shock! says:
what the hell!
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
??
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
HHAAHAHAHAHHA
Louey Shock! says:
its the dare

You have just sent a nudge.

[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
4 down 16 t go!
Louey Shock! says:
and another
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
my turn ?
Louey Shock! says:
no

You may not send a nudge that often.

You have just sent a nudge.

[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
5 down!
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
ouhs

You may not send a nudge that often.

You may not send a nudge that often.

Louey Shock! says:
lol it keeps saying You may not send a nudge that often

You have just sent a nudge.

Louey Shock! says:
jhnjhjh hell!

You may not send a nudge that often.

You may not send a nudge that often.

You may not send a nudge that often.

[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Haha I KNOW. AWESOME BLUE HELL.

You have just sent a nudge.

Louey Shock! says:
7 already

You have just sent a nudge.

Louey Shock! says:
8

You may not send a nudge that often.

You have just sent a nudge.

[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
awesomeee.
Louey Shock! says:
9
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
9
Louey Shock! says:
...

You may not send a nudge that often.

You have just sent a nudge.

Louey Shock! says:
10!

You may not send a nudge that often.

You may not send a nudge that often.

Louey Shock! says:
hell!

You have just sent a nudge.

You may not send a nudge that often.

Louey Shock! says:
lol

You have just sent a nudge.

[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
HAHAHAHA
Louey Shock! says:
12

You may not send a nudge that often.

You may not send a nudge that often.

Louey Shock! says:
grr!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
Imma gonna be nice. STOP.

You have just sent a nudge.

Louey Shock! says:
finally!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
who's turn?
Louey Shock! says:
LIONEL YOUR TURN!!!!!!!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
HE'S BRB
Louey Shock! says:
yeah
klarance had to go
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
In my opinion,good riddance.
Louey Shock! says:
maY I CRY
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
yes you may.
Louey Shock! says:
HEY!
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
mee mee meee
mee meee meee
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
SURE.
AWESOME.
Louey Shock! says:
okays cheryl truth or dare
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
KILLS THE BOREDOM.
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
TRUTH<3
Louey Shock! says:
who do you like?!
tell me!
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
me.
i like.
Louey Shock! says:
likee!?
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
cookie monster.
and elmo,
xD
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
AWESOME.
ME TOO.
Louey Shock! says:
i mean a person
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
WOOTS.
Louey Shock! says:
a human being
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
they ARE SOMEONE.
hmms...
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
fine. a crush may i say?
Louey Shock! says:
yeah
exactly
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
hmms.
crushes....
Louey Shock! says:
YES!
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
wait i have to think...
Louey Shock! says:
okays
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
Jun fukuyama.
xD
no.
wait
Louey Shock! says:
okays?
hurry
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
TAKISHIMA KEI
<3
Louey Shock! says:
okays clara!
truth or dare
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
dare it gf.
Louey Shock! says:
clara!

You have just sent a nudge.

Louey Shock! says:
LOL!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
ME?
Louey Shock! says:
yeah
you
truth or dare?
hello?
you there?
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
oh oh
uh.
truth
Louey Shock! says:
okays
is levi really your boyfriend and does he really lives in canada?
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
OBVIOUSLY.
wait due.
*dude.
I'mma gonan show you.
Louey Shock! says:
okays
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
http://www.facebook.com/cougarcheddarcheese?ref=profile#/profile.php?id=100000056344601
Louey Shock! says:
cant
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
oh sad.
Louey Shock! says:
lol
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
but you do know the weird timings he comes online.
Louey Shock! says:
my turn!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
and.
and.
and.
Louey Shock! says:
yeah
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
you can google levi elias thomas
Louey Shock! says:
okays believed
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:

Louey Shock! says:
mine is truth

Lionel has left the conversation.

[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
AWESOME.
Louey Shock! says:
he left!
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
HE ACTUALLY LEFT.
AWESOMEEEE
Louey Shock! says:
yeah happy
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
OMFG THE BEST THING THAT HAPPENED TODAY'
Louey Shock! says:
lol
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
LOL.
[c=4]C[/c]ougar says:
OMFG I CANNOT BELIEVE IT
SO HAPPPPPPPYYYYY
until i also leaving. PIE PEOPLE.

[c=4]C[/c]ougar has left the conversation.

Louey Shock! says:
ohmygod
Cheryl ; imma spammer xD says:
ooookays.
bye
Louey Shock! says:
funneh

hahas that's all !!

long since i blogged

2009-12-01T16:38:00.002+08:00

Hey guys!,
It's been so long since i blogged.
I felt so guilty on killing this blog so i decided to post some things
xD

Well let me start on a topic?
Ooh yarh!
I went to terengganu with my dad's side of the family.
It was a nice experience.
Flooded, being in a car for 13 hours and vomiting in the car.

Anyways, i'm moving to tumblr (:
So byee! RELINK ME!

I want a pet platypus ♥

2009-11-08T13:35:00.007+08:00

Behold, the duck billed platypus' mouth/nose or smth?

It's cute hands or flippers or smth?

It's sooo CUTE!! OMG I WANT ONE!

I love you, xoxo,♥♥♥♥ / i'll marry the guy who gives me this!

My beloved platypus! i sincerely ♥♥♥ love you, MUACKS!

Okays, i admit it, yeah i love watching "Phineas & Ferb".
It's the only show i watch,
Well yeah only show i watch from disney.
I love you!!!
Okays before i go overboard, i just want to say!
OMG I LOVE PLATYPUS!!!
Hahas, that was random,
Bye!

idk

2009-11-08T10:46:00.003+08:00

all i want to say is i dont know ....

I'm bored!!!

2009-11-05T21:42:00.003+08:00

Hahas, kays i'm blogging, but dont know what to say?
So maybe i do some random stuffs again.
What's my love horoscope today?

i'm aries so,

Conversation is the order of the day - and that won't only apply to you and whomever you're with. Even if you're single, the person you spend your time with will be in the mood to chat just intensely. Prepare yourself. Even if it starts out casually, no conversation will end that way.

My horoscope,
meaning the normal one is:

You are like a star in the sky, it is the light you leave behind when you are gone that people remember. Continue to give to others and they will always be there waiting to help you fulfill your own dreams. The light you leave behind will make a trail to your heart forever

HEYS! I'VE GOTTA GO!

Random post

2009-11-04T17:42:00.002+08:00

Update, update, update?
I don’t know what to update about.
Should I update about my recent doings or ramble about some stuff I know you guys are not interested of?
Oh well I’ll just talk then :D

December is going to be super duper busy !!

Not in order but here is what I’m going to do :

■ Sleepover @ either mine OR Ira’s
■ Shopping for IDP with friends
■ Informal dress party @ Hailey’s
■ Choir pratice and Concert @ esplanade
■ Make up party @ klarance’s
■ Clara’s birthday, Self revison
■ Watch parents quarrel over book fees
■ Watch my parents go completely phsyco scolding and pushing my needs to each other.

So I’m kind of speechless. Not much to talk about.
Hmm quiz time.
So long since I quiz (:

You are the Sense of Sight

You are a very observant, detail oriented person.

You are able to take in a lot of information at once.

You often see things that other people never notice.

You have a good eye for design and aesthetics.

You love to be surrounded by beauty - natural or not.

When you imagine how something should look, you see it clearly in your mind.

Which of the Five Senses Are You?

You Would Be a Down to Earth Celebrity

You aren't easily impressed or star struck, and if you were to become famous, it wouldn't change your own opinion about yourself.

You'd still treat everyone as you always have, and more importantly, you wouldn't expect to be treated any differently.

You'd be friendly to your fans and as accessible as possible. After all, they're the ones who make you famous.

You'd be a celebrity in the mold of Kate Winslet, Renee Zellweger, John Mayer, and Ashton Kutcher.

What Kind of Celebrity Would You Be?

Your True Love Will Maybe Find You

But it's going to be tough! You're not really around to find.

You really need to get yourself out there if you're expecting to find love.

Go somewhere (anywhere!) new from time to time.

Or if you're really shy - at least join a dating site.

Will Your True Love Find You?

You Act Like You Are 18 Years Old

You are a teenager at heart. You don't quite feel like a grown up yet, but you don't feel like a kid.

You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

You're quite rebellious, and you don't like being told what to do. You like to do things your way.

You have your own unique style, taste in music, and outlook on life.

What Age Do You Act?

Your Valentine's Day Personality is Heartbroken

Valentine's Day is something you could potentially enjoy, but not this year.

It just brings up too many bad feelings and memories for you right now.

That's the problem with Valentine's Day. It's a double edged sword.

The better it feels when you're in a couple, the worse it feels when you're single.

What's Your Valentine's Day Personality?

You'll Have 1 True Love

You don't just believe in love at first site - you've experienced it.

You develop crushes pretty easily, but keeping your interest is another matter!

You are very prone to love - hate relationships.

Number of Times You'll Have Your Heart Broken: 1

You are most compatible with people born on the 1st, 10th, 19th, and 28th of the month.

What Does Your Birth Date Mean For Your Love Life?

You Are Going to Heaven

You're so saintly you're practically an angel, and there's no other place for you than heaven.

You are always concerned with doing the right thing. You consider being a good person a joy... not a burden.

You're not perfect, and you don't expect anyone else to be. You are ethical without being sanctimonious about it.

You are happy with yourself and the decisions you've made. And that's what's important.

Are You Going to Heaven or Hell?

You Are 89% Homophobic

You're incredibly homophobic. Let's hope that no one gay crosses your path.

Seriously, though, you're quite angry. Maybe it's really you that's the problem.

Are You Homophobic?

Lol, continue later. Lazy now, hahas tag my chatbox please!!!

Happy Halloween, Final results, What i've been up too Xp

2009-10-31T14:21:00.001+08:00

Happy Halloween guys!
It’s been a decade since I was online and obviously since I blogged!
Finally got time to escape my dad’s fury of not letting me use the computer.
Anyway I lost my specs and I’ll be blind till god knows when, till I collect $550 maybe?
Hahas, by then my degree sure 500 already plus I got astism it’s going to be worst.
Oh yarh here’s my final results.

English language – B4
Malay – C6
Mathematics – D7
Science – C5
Geography – B4
History – C5
Literature – A1
Design and technology – D7
Art – C5
Home economics – C5

So I got 1 A, 2 B’s, 5 C’s, and 2 D’s
I need to buck up so yeah who want to be my tutor for like a few subjects?
XD

All right, many of you been asking what I’ve been up to, but actually I was doing nothing these few days. Just sitting down doing nothing and stuff. Reading the dictionary and others.
Goy choir sey, anyway I really lost interest with boys. Hahas, I got a new little brother named klarance. Girls don’t go wild HE IS NOT MY BOYFRIEND ALRIGHT?!
No chemistry no nothing xD
Opposite attract and we are quite alike, so don’t please don’t get it wrong
Thank you very much!

So I’ll try and blog a little more :D
Blog later at night…

Someone Has A Crush !

2009-10-24T23:26:00.002+08:00

OMG?
Guess what, i think this guy from SSS,(decent one, diff from the other bitches and bastards from that school) has a crush one me.
He is so cute!
I mean not regarding how he looks like but his personality.
Is like awesome, he's different from the other boys i know, he's special in a way, unique in his own way!
LOOL!

We chat with each other on msn almost everyday, and he tries to talk to me alot.
It’s nice and stuff, but I have no chemistry with him.
Or maybe not yet, hahas I never flirt with him before.
And I don’t reckon I want to.
He likes me for who I am :D
And that’s a good thing( I think )

Well I don’t want to let the cat out of the bag this time.
Only my closest friends will know who he is :D

Anyway seriously?
I pretty meh?
Cause got many people say i pretty .
LOL???

Random me (:

2009-10-23T22:03:00.002+08:00

Stupid little bitches,
Rest assure I’ll murder them personally murder them with my bare hands.
I seriously hate them and for god’s sakes I hope they spend eternity in hell too.
What do these psycho hypocrites want with me?

You have slutty and Bitcho XD
I made pet names for them, don’t cha think that’s nice?
Yes very nice
I don’t give a bloody fuck care if you’re popular, pretty, foreign or whatsoever, not even if you’re not a virgin. I DON’T CARE SUCKERROOO!
You want to criticize me, so be it but girls be prepared to die early

I’m still smiling you know why?
Cause I’m happy, happy to be alive and happy to see them get mad.
It’s entertaining to see them get mad and furious, especially when I don’t care, it’s like they’re making a fool of themselves.
Hahahaha!

MadMadMad! I can make them go craze!
WEEE! Fireflies by OwlCity are Top 1 in Sg again :D
Loving mutton to midnight.
Love them so much.

Yeah results time, I’m a miracle you know.

English: 30/60 (C6)
Mathematics: 40/100 (E8)
Science: 53 ½ /100 (C6)
Mother tongue: 48/100 (D7)
Geography: 60/100 (B4)
Home economics: 44/100 (D7)
Literature: 93 ½ /100 (A1)

I got A, B, C, D, and E!
Wow!
Pathetic!!!
Lol!
Altogether is 39 points,
But I got a 5-point average.
It’s all right I just got to study! And I mean study not dream away about boys (:

Clara Isebelle, Fathin Natalya, Ira Adriana!!!!
DO YOU GUYS WANT TO GO BOWLING WITH ME?
ANSWER FAST GIRLS, before 20nov cause my kiddo going overseas.
Thank you :D

I got to go, blog again and guys!
Check out my plurk!!!!

Love poems; sorry but i'm just so sadd.

2009-10-21T10:44:00.002+08:00

If you come as softly
As wind within the trees
You may hear what I hear
See what sorrow sees.
If you come as lightly
As threading dew
I will take you gladly
Nor ask more of you.
You may sit beside me
Silent as a breath
Only those who stay dead
Shall remember death.
And if you come I will be silent
Nor speak harsh words to you.
I will not ask you why, now.
Or how, or what you do.
We shall sit here, softly
Beneath two different years
And the rich earth between us
Shall drink our tears.

By: Audre Lorde

Tears I cry in this endless dream
Pain I feel flows like a waterfall into the
river's stream
I hear the tune of sorrow and despair
Forever alone in this dark place
love does not live there

Love quit me, I did not quit him
Memories of sweet moments and what could have been
He sung this song as he walked towards the door, "I don't want to know you or see you anymore."

I cried and pleaded and asked "Was it me?"
He said, " you and I were just not meant to be." He left me alone with rage, anger, and pain. How could something so sweet be so vain?

"Don't cry my dear we can still be friends."
I let out a sigh and told him that this is the end. At that exact moment I felt as is I wanted to die, because everything he ever told me was a lie.

Pieces of my hear began to shatter even more, as I saw him walk out the door. Don't know where to start or where to began. To pick up the pieces so my heart can mend

By Taylar Simms

Where were you when i fell? What happened to that boy that always made me smile.
I miss you and i'm sorry....

To: Clara

2009-10-17T21:25:00.001+08:00

Clara, my kiddo.
This is for you (;

2 years ago, we had this big fight because of DLYC and it cause you, qistina, hanisah and me quite a problem.
It was a few months back.
September holidays, we had to go to school for supps lesson. Remember?
Then during recess, you pulled me to the girl’s washroom.
You introduced him to me and I was like “Ohh what the hell? Cool.”
And during our second break you called him.
I said hi and you and me talk away in the other washroom next to our class.
Sometimes, we will do a 3 party conversation and I’ll listen to you two talk or rather you and me talk.
There was once I was in the bus going back from school, I still remember.
We were chatting and he kept quiet.
A detailed memory.
Then one day you introduced them to Qistina and Hanisah or rather I think they found out.
And they chatted with him, claiming that they knew him first which was a lie cause I was the first to know about him right?
I got upset and there was when the commotion started.
That night I asked for his number and I started messaging him.
When I found out Qistina was also chatting with him I got a bit jealous.
I was alright with you but Qis hmm the green eyed monster took over me.
We quarrel and quarrelled.

Till one day we decided that a centre of attraction boy like him isn’t worth our friendship.
Remember when Qis called him a “Whatever Major Loser” and he got upset?
It was hilarious and it was kind of a relief to us too.
We became friends, back to normal and we made fun of him like what we usually do.
I still remember, sitting next to you, front seat, looking for schools with the class.
And we were laughing all the way when Mr.Koh got to Catholic High School.
Precious moments.
And then I remember I accidentally messaged him when I was at a photoshot.
He replied and omg! We became friends behind your back.
I decided to lie to him and break his friendship with me cause I felt guilty and because he was flirting with me. (Hey you know how irritated when people go all mushy with me. And I draw the line at sweetie.)
So the friendship ended after our PSLE.
& MAN! DAMN IT! I fell in love with him!!
ZOMG?
=. =”

The little India trip, omg that was fun!
And agreed that I was fat when I was in primary school XD
Now thinner, weets!
Remember when derick got sick and we shared the food and you were ohmygoshing over Douglas’ phone and Felix was with us.
It was fun, I bought don’t know?
And the fortuneteller!!
OMG remember?

And the letter, yes the letter with the Cinderella, I’m prince enchanted xD
Hahas.
Remember Mr.Koh asked you who prince charming?
Raymond or Sharmas?
Hilarious!
And I shouted I was prince enchanted!

Remember the time I got into a big fight with the ‘pop’ kids?
Hmm memories.
And remember when I tried to jump of the railing?
Ooh it was a big drama scene.
The one I locked myself in the toilet.
You thought it was about DLYC, but it wasn’t cause I started laughing.
Why?
Cause I was crying tears of joy.
Our great friendship :D
It was heavenly.

The debate was fun too and last day of school was the happiest day of my life.
Remember prom night?
Omg yes.

You are truly a girl’s best friend, a diamond.
You’ll be the gem on my wedding ring (:
And my bridesmaid!!

Girl, I couldn’t ask anything better for my birthday.
For that I thank you.
Even though we are far apart, we hardly talk to each other and meet each other; I want to know this friendship shall continue as long as my heart is beating and when I reach heaven too.

PEEKTURES OUT SOON!

I'M BACK!

2009-10-17T19:28:00.001+08:00

Examinations are over and hot shot!
I’m not going to promote =.=”
Well there’s a re-test and I’m prepared to make a huge drama act for Mr.Minjoot to see xD
Alright evil much, yeah I think I’m going back to my old habits. Not lying but being a you know cheeky and stuffs.
Innocence sucks!
Maybe not I’m just sick of being goodie two shoes.
Oh yarh anyway who wants to watch a movie with me?!?!?!

I’m desperate!
Lucks , wait why is my blog dead?
Man I’m so frustrated right now.
!!!!
GRR I WANT TO KILL JEFFERY TEW WEI XIANG!
YES! I do (:
Hmm then I’ll bury him.
Dotz let my imagination go wild, not too wild.
Hahahas,
Wait my sister just ate my hair.
What a girl.
Hey I got to go.
Maybe I’ll continue tomorrow or late night.
Bye love you guys!!!

2009-10-02T22:18:00.000+08:00

Yo dickys!
LOOL!
Don’t mind me now cause I’m super horny over a book!!
Cool hot sex. Umm alright I’ll get out of this mood first.

Okays in the morning, I dragged my sleep. & Actually I didn’t really get enough sleep, was awaken by many things like DYM crying and stuffs.
Well I went to school at 7am.
Read my book from mathematics lesson till geography.
2 hours of hidden horniness (:
Sweet innocence..
Muahaha!

So yeah I drew some angles for mathematics and drew my graphs.
I totally blurred out in geography and Cheryl started nagging.
Grr I would really much want to concentrate on the book.
I mean I prefer mdm nurbee compared to Mrs.Chia with her dashing look and irritating squeaky voice, not mentioning how argh!
I just don’t like her. Found her really irritating. Prefer mdm kartini XD

I drew the home economics poster during recess and kind of chatted to jeevan .
Blood fuck, you know what?! It will be my pleasure to see Jeffery burn in hell with his ancestors. May god show him no mercy and may no hesitation be attached to him. I curse him to live a life of misery and dread till he finds out what he did wrong.
I’m not invited to jeevan’s birthday party cause of bitches and bastards aka the popular kids in the class.
Fuck them all!!! They deserve hell more than murderers do!

After recess was home economics. I started crying straight after recess no thanks to what jeev told me about what Jeffery said.
Well stop crying and apparently mr I’m-so-popular-and-you’re-not!-&-I-don’t-like-you-cause-your-weird sat next to me. Well kind of. He was on my left.

I obviously acted like a bitch in front of him.
And then I had to collect the papers.
I collected his last and ewe!
Can’t believe his remains were touched by my bare fingers.
Disgusting! I felt like disinfecting my hands with a ton of soap!
Why I felt really disgusted when he called me with his absurdly croaky voice.
The way he called me ain.
Call me sakinah please!
I mean I rather be called a ghost of sprit of tranquillity send by god then precious.
And him calling me ain, ewe that’s just gruesome.
I would rather look at a girl being raped by one of my guy friends.

During mother tongue I chatted to melyssa.
Oh ya yesterday I went to melyssa’s house and I had FUN FUN FUN!
We ate maggi, I finished two cups of ben & jerry’s ice cream, chocolates, sweets and egg!
The fire stove burnt Mel but it didn’t hurt.
Hahas that was so cool and close!!!
I’ll post some pictures.

After school I saw zanth, wanted to go to her house but she has dogs in her house so I ditched that idea. Went to cheers bought 2 bottles of 100 plus and a Cadbury bar xD
I burped like a guy. I mean it. It was so open and it was loud!
Cool huh? I may look like a girl (thanks to my hair, boobs and sweet curves..) but I act like a boy! I even have the mental thinking of a 15 year old boy. This is so awesome.

Stayed in the house for a while till Clara told I could come over to her place.
So met her at PP.

Walked to her house and I acted like a nuisance.
So typical! Hyper much!
And I had some hotdog lunch with her.
I took off my skirt, left with uniform + shorts, bragging about how fat I was.
Well I had fun with her. We went to prime wait no! We ran to prime and ran back. Man I lost!!
But Clara blocked me and I was about to fall, hello? Raining.
We saw wanyi but I think she only noticed Clara.
Cool!
So we bought 3 lollipops and I bought them strawberry ice cream!
ICE CREAM!! YUMMY <3

I’ll show some pictures instead. Easier to reminisce through stuffs that went on.
And by the way I think Clara’s sister, Christine was kind of comfortable with me cause she wanted me to stay! How cool?

Going to Malaysia tomorrow.
Go village, sigh I was about to study but hmm that doesn’t sound possible but I think I will study Malay there: D

SUCK AT IT, PROUD OF IT!

2009-10-02T21:58:00.018+08:00

Heavenly lovee.

Walter, cheryl's "ex boyfriend". He's super cute & super funny.

Cute couples huh?

CHERYL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Me!!

Sakinah and cheryl on the bustop home.

Carpark mirror

Egg!

Maggi!

I told you about my teeth.

See my smile & necklace!!

Blue reflection..

Yes in the mirror at mel's house xD

SEE!! i told you guys i was fat! Okays maybe not that fat, i have a flat stomach, CURSE THE BIG UNIFORMS!!

Oooh my bucktooth stands out nicely, OMG CLARA!

I look scary! Peace clara.

Brown + grey + blue eyes rock!!! My teeth.

I look super wow in this peekture! Ira said it was sexy? Hello?! shorts!!

2009-09-30T19:09:00.001+08:00

Cheryl the magician has succeeded making e.lou,ain sakinah adam smile!!!
Woots!
I went out with cher today to bishan library & junction 8!
It was so cool and super awesome!

Well this is what we did.
Right after the school bell rang, cheryl and me went to our separated destinations.
I went to the library book drop and cher went to the canteen.
Then I ran down the stairs to the canteen to meet cher.
I saw her sitting on the table eating some Japanese food that looks so yummy!
However, instead of buying the same dish as her I bought 2 paus and a bottle of apple juice and orange juice (it consist of 250ml each)

Then I kept panicking, we went to the bus stop together while I kind of played a fool of myself. Oh ya I cher climbed mount Everest with me just now aka the overhead bridge. Cher, please for goodness sakes. Then we took a bus to compass point. We took 156 to bishan. And cher’s ex boyfriend, kidding a guy who knew cher started talking to her. And honestly he’s better looking then any of the boys in my class.

So we talked and talked. And finally we reached bishan! Woo hoo!
We walked to the library and there was this really long queue to the ticketing counter.
When we reached the library we went to the book drop and then inside the air-conditioned building. Went to the 2nd level. And decided to go to the last floor. Cher took the lift and I climbed the stairs. But in the end she had to climb the stairs. Haahaas!

We sat nest to the lift. And apparently like what cher said, manga was more important that homework! HELLO?! We went there to study not read manga!!
Well after a few minutes of nagging she finally started doing the science work. And yeah we only did science xD

Then I borrowed 3 books. Cher wanted to find this book , erotic book for me but failed! Hahas ! Next we went to macs to buy ice cream! Wait!!! We went to the washroom, my specs lens dropped out, I wore my contacts and the macs.
Lastly I went to 7-11 and bought mineral water. That’s all I guess.

Erm there were this two retarded, crazy people in the bus talking loudly and stuff hahas. But never mind. I ‘ll show you some pics next time(:

TIME FOR SAKINAH TO REVISE HER STUDIES!!!

despair

2009-09-29T21:10:00.001+08:00

Smile?
Do you think I could really smile?
Of course I could!

Why I’m I so sad?
I’ve got Cheryl! Good old cheryl, my chubby, CUTE!!! , best friend is school!

And clara! My darling/best girlfriend clara! Oh clara..

Natalya,my dearest friend nat, she’s there for me I know she is!

Ira! Yo ira, love ya so much. SOCCER!!!

YuChuen, my sweet friend donn, so typical, yet so annoying when he ignores me but sweet yuchuen (:

JianHong, nice classmate to talk to. Really random but hey at least he listens!
So what I’m I doing this? Crying like some mad woman? Stop being sad and depressed, don’t drown in an ocean od misery&despair. You’ll break yuchuen’s promise. Call me when you guys are free, I need someone to talk to. I really love you guys. All 6 of you, angels send by god, but..but maybe I donty deserve you friendship and trust? No! what I’m I saying? I’ve earn it didn’t I ? Please help me out …

2009-09-29T18:59:00.005+08:00

Cheryl Soh Shi Hui!!!
You aree dead chubby, DEAD!!
So yeah, me and pizza are getting closer.
Best friends duh!

And I’m going to bishan library with her romorrow!
Woots!!
I love you cher!

Today I spent my whole day devoted to her.
Duhh!
And she drew something on my book as I drown in misery which cheered me up!!

Then we went library after school and yeah that’s all.
Show the things she drew and I wrote (:

But I’ll show you my conv with her!!

Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
hey weirdo
:]
went to my blog ?
Sakkinahh!!! says:
hey chuuby
yups
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
woots
lined ?
linked`
Sakkinahh!!! says:
not yet
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
hmms
link now
btw youre bringing hp tml ?
im bringing
cus i go till compass
EHS
sorry shld be bishan
Sakkinahh!!! says:
ya bringing
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
oki
okie dokie
><
Sakkinahh!!! says:
lol
i everyday bring leh
Sakkinahh!!! says:
lol?
(:
iloveyou
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
i love ya too
Sakkinahh!!! says:
cvute hoe the panda
cute
hor
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
not as cute as mee :]
Sakkinahh!!! says:
linked
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
okie dokie
Sakkinahh!!! says:

hahas>?
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
??
Sakkinahh!!! says:
i going to put ya drawing
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
great ??
Sakkinahh!!! says:
hahas
so have you ever seen donn's pic
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
nope
never
Sakkinahh!!! says:
i show you. but his p5 one
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
okie dok
Sakkinahh!!! says:
okays?
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
OMG
Sakkinahh!!! says:
P5 P5!!!
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
he is sooooooo freakingly CUTEE
Sakkinahh!!! says:
got diff got diff now!!!
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
NOT
Sakkinahh!!! says:
\lol?!
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
eww
soo ugly
Sakkinahh!!! says:
aiya you.
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
?
Sakkinahh!!! says:
at least better than jeff la
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
no
i tink jeff better ??
lokks more
umm
clean ?
he looks soo sweaty
like he just when under a shower
Sakkinahh!!! says:
lol please la. during cca and stuff
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
ewww
u have seriously bad taste ain
Sakkinahh!!! says:
hey
that was p5 la
i show you my p5 pic you puke la
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
i know
Sakkinahh!!! says:
you!! ==
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
:]
Sakkinahh!!! says:
>>
grr about to bite
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
whateva
my god
the look at it is
is
is
is
GUARGH
Sakkinahh!!! says:
but jeff so thin and like dried fish
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
but he like a
a
chicken
i rather dried fish
Sakkinahh!!! says:
chicken?
what the hell why?
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
he so white
Sakkinahh!!! says:
ya i know.
very fair leh
better that jeff!
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
omg
i cant stand it
i need a bin
or basin
or rubbish bag is fine
Sakkinahh!!! says:
grr.
hmm well better than booon wee
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
yeah
really yeah
Sakkinahh!!! says:
hahas! then?
jeff and boon look same
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
no ?
Sakkinahh!!! says:
you think who better? put in order.
jeff boonwee yuchuen
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
jeff , that chicken white dude , mee hoon
Sakkinahh!!! says:
lol!
hahas, 2nd place!
i kill jeff then 1st place!!
woots baby
Cheryl ; never let the fear of striking out keep ya from playing the game says:
whateva
Sakkiahh!!! says:
hahas.
but what so better about jeff compared to yuchuen?
Okays so i guess that was all.

If you are reading this, (dlyc)

Ignore my friend cher (:

Pictures!!

This is mine, obviously mine cause it's like all sad and stuff, erm it's in colour codes alright and yeah my handwriting sucks!!
Yo!! this is cheryl's drawing. Super cute. Drawn on my diary!! Personal diary

2009-09-28T19:28:00.000+08:00

What’s the use of being here on earth if everyhting is just too cruel to live?
My heart is throbbing ever so badly.
I need to be alone. Absolute silence & peace.
I just wish god could send me to a deep slumber for at least a week or so.
Sakinah has lost hope, faith and love.

There is no such thing on earth called hope.
I’ve given up on it.
No matter how much I tried it just pulls me down,
Like how gravity keeps everyone + everything from floating into space.
Hopeless sakinah.
I just wish time could stop.
I wanna be alone.
Alone from everyone. I need to be alone. I just … just need some privacy.
Peace and quiet, a friend to talk to who would understand the scrocing pain I’m going through.
Why cant my life be perfect or merely perfect like others?
What have I done to suffer all of this.
My parents.. yes my parents.
They.. they don’t know me, they don’t know that I’m this sensitive girl who cries about almost everyhting. That I’m mentally disturbed, emotionally unstable and that I’m facing a grief of depression.

I need to get out of this place of misery and despair, this place where some people call home, whereas I call hell. And over all this sadness I have to live with a “dreadful” family which is just making everything worst.

Faith, If’s there’s no hope, surely faith doesn’t exist. It’s just a matter of time till I start to pour my heart out. Love.

Right now at this moment I’m only loving god and half of myself.
I hate myself, no I don’t. Low self esteem.
Now I am going to sleep.
Bye

2009-09-23T20:43:00.001+08:00

Tuesday

I owe this world!
Actually I owe my own world :D
Hmm I’m still disturbed by the girls in my class.
Gosh I wish I could like just taking a sword and chopping their heads off.
Like I’ve said repeatedly “DO NOT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER!!”
And I think I’ve given up on my love life like my other friends.
I mean it’s nice to have a boyfriend.
Wait wait ! “A decent boyfriend who loves me for I am and doesn’t compare me with the other pretty girls out in the sea xD ”

Well I’m left with like 6 best friends.

Clara isebelle, ira Adriana, fathin Natalya, Cheryl soh shihui, Donny lim yuchuen, qistina atiqah!!! (:

Woots, let give around of applause to these kids who were there to support me when I’m out of mood (:
Hey others out there, don’t steal them away from me cause I will 100% kill you with my own bear hands!!
Muahaha!

Man, Donny’s right!
Love is so not redirect able.
I mean I found my so-called dream boyfriend, however I’m stuck in loserville in love with the guy whom I hate cause his like the opposite of prince charming.

My idea of prince charming is..
WAIT! I’m not describing yuchuen alright.
It’s just that he just turns out to be my type of boyfriend :x
But were just friends and his heart is devoted to one and only one girl named kurtrina :D

So let me see.
I need a byfren who’s
- Abit chubby, no skinny, no body guys
- Taller than me, but not so tall, 175cm ++
- Extremely good in English and language
- Has a background in music xD
- Not rowdy, very gentlemanly!!!
- Polite, has good manners and sociable
- True to god, ME! his family and friends
- Must put effort in studies and hopes for the best
- MUST NOT BE A COMPUTER ADDICT!!!!
- Obviously must be humorous and loyal to me and others xD
- Always there for me, understanding, a LISTENING EAR!

That’s all. Uh huh!
Not describing yuchuen, like I’ve said before :)

So all I can say is jtwx, is the opposite of what I’ve typed out there.
Well it’s my psycho opinion of him.
Everyone has a different perspective of others so yeah, can’t scold me for nothing can ya?
Other than that, I really have to buck up darlings.
Anyone care to assist me with my studies on like weekends?

Please like tell me ASAP.
Cause I really need help.
So yeah help me.

I’m weak in science, mathematics and Malay.
DYM is currently crying.
And obviously he gets a scolding from dad.
And I’m going to be dead in any second so bye.

Wednesday

I so don’t rock this world!
Gosh soo depressed right now!!
Actually I’m just getting mood swings.
I want to recap what happened today :D

Morning jeevan bragged about ameerah’s cookies being deliciously nicer than mine will ever be & when he tasted mine he went all “omg it’s very nice and don’t tell ameerah”
Tsk Tsk nah I tell for what I’m not the kind who wants to brag too much xD

So yeah, well today I basically got extremely close to my darling cupcake Cheryl!
CHERYL YOU ROCK BABY!!!
Ooh, going overboard sakinah.
Nevermind it’s time for me to express myself anyways (:
Relax a bit and release the stress baby!
So now I’m editing a blogskin
Hahas and dreaming about you know who
♥ Ferfurry ♥
Muackakaka!
LOLs!
Hmm so orh bored!
Kiddos I love myself and I hate you!
Kind of bored, blog again next time when I’m free O:And chatty :D

2009-09-18T15:45:00.002+08:00

I MET CLARA!
I finally got to met my best girlfriend.
Man that was soo cool, and guess what she almost the same height as me!
I'm super happy i got to meet her.
Well the first thing i realised about he was that her shoes were dead.
LMAO so is mine, but it's not obvious.

I'm going to my granny's house to buka puasa today.
So it's like i'm rushing while typing this. cause i dont really type that fats.
SO far no spelling mistakes right?
Yeah!!!

Well this is how the story went.
For today :D

I got seriously pissed in the morning and i sulked for the whole day without talking.
OMG I HAD TO STAY BACK FOR MATHS!!!
okays but it was worth it other then waiting for clara like a zombie till 2pm
So we did the graph and blah blah.
Left the school, called clara darl and asked her where was she.
And my phone died along the way.
I waited for clara at the wrong block :X
It's been a longg time since i've been under her block, so i tried to remeber the times i had with her and i found out where was her block.!!

I ran to her and we hugged!!!
Well i've gotta go. Bye!!!

2009-09-17T20:59:00.003+08:00

Let me say one thing.
SAKINAH ROCKS!
Okays, laugh out loud!
I don’t know where that came from?
Hmm it came from her royal rocking awesome majesty sakinah (:
Yes I rock!

Let me tell you what I told clara.

Crazy freako says: man! Who cares what they think of me? I mean I’m SAKINAH& I ROCK, I;M AWESOME , i dont need idiots nor bitches to judge me. there are people who think i'm great and i thank them for that

Poison Ivy, says: you go hunk! XD

And you wanna know what I told Ira?

“I don’t know why I’m saying this but I rock! & Those bitches who always judge me have no right to do that. Man who cares about what they think? I mean I’m sakinah & I’m awesome!! I love my dreadful life. & I finally got my hope, faith and happiness back. It’s so good to finally come out of the shadows :D”

Eh got to go. Continue 2morrow (:

2009-09-17T20:59:00.001+08:00

2009-09-14T20:29:00.002+08:00

1. You are friendly or un-friendly to people ?
- Duh friendly :D

2. Whats your real name?
- Hmm. You can say its ain sakinah from short .

3. What do you think of yourself?
- No words can describe me (;

4.Do you love your life that you are having now?
- Not exactly.

5. Are you a female or a male?
- FEMALE .

6. Name 10 of your friends (random):
1. Clara
2. Natalya
3. Ira
4. Jian Hong
5. YuChuen
6. Qistina
7. Rahayu
8. Klarance
9. Cheryl
10. XinYi

7. What if one day number 1 and 3 fight what will you do?
- Omg! Trust me ira & clara wont fight!!

8. Have you think of number 4 and 5 being together?
- Ewe no way!! They are not gay alright! & I’ll kill YuChuen, I thot he loves kurtrina.

9. Say something about number 2
- Yoz!!! She’s my ever bestie :D

10. Is number 9 a friendly people?
- Hmm yea she’s friendly, reliable and hyper BUT SUPER NAGGIE!

11. Will you think number 10 is a attitude person?
- Not really but when she’s mad, she’ll bite.

12. Do number 6 and 7 know each other?
- Yeah, but not close.

13. Who is number 5?
- YuChuen, a random chubby guy xD

14. Do you get along well with number 8?
- Yeah, he’s really nice to talk to..

15. What are you doing at 11am today?
- Waiting for my grandmother in the rain >.>

16. What do you drink for breakfast today?
- Mango juice.

17. This june holiday, who do you spent the most time with?
- No one but myself.

18. Do you enjoy blogging?
- Sometimes . (:

19. What your e-mail address?
- I got a few but mostly the pink one.

20. Do you love english or science?
- I LOVE ENGLISH!!

21. who do you last talk to when you are in MSN?
- My cousin in australia.

23. How old are you?
- 13

24. Do you like being a female or a male?
- idk.

25. What your handphone brand?
- Sony Ericson ! (:

26. How many siblings you have?
- 2.

27. Do you enjoy going to school?
- I love school but hate the students.

28. Giving you a chance to quit school, will you do that?
- NEVERR!

29. Do you find your parent reasonable when they scold you?
- I have no idea!

30. Are you that type of person that like to pissed people off?
- depends on the situation.

31. What are you going to do later?
- Homework, I hadnt start on anything.

32. Do you love holiday?
- No.

33. Do you love shopping?
- depends if money is involved.

34. Whats your favourate colour?
- idk, maybe pink and yellow green.

35. Do you drink coffee?
- yummy mocha.

36. You prefer eating spicy or salty food?
- Spice .

37. Everytime when you on your computer what's the 1st thing you do?
- microsoft word and my plurk and msn and my blog XD.

38. What type of music you like?
- idk, a variety.

39. If someone call you a bitch what will you do?
- Ignore them?

40. What will you wana work as when you grown up?
- Composer or conductor.
41. Do you believe in true friend?
- Yes . :D

42. Have you think of changing school?
- At first , but now , no . Bcos 1e2 rocks !

43. Will you feel left out in class?
- Sometimes.

44. Who do you trust the most?
- CLARA ISEBELLE, FATHIN NATATLYA AND IRA ADRIANA!!

45. You prefer being in crush or being love by someone?
- Being loved .

46. How many family member you prefer with?
- Ime, mommy, daddy and bro. No obnoxious sister :D

47. Do you love taking picture?
- Depends ?

48. Will you like to have a pet?
- IDK!?!?

49. Which shopping place do you like the most?
- CaN GO Paris?

50. What time you sleep last night?
- Before 10pm?

2009-09-12T21:26:00.001+08:00

Let me talk.
I’m bored, I’m innocent and I’m soo not horny.
WHICH IS THE BIG PROBLEM RIGHT NOW!!!

I’ve been goodie two shoes for quite a long time.
I need to unwind and start going all disgusting again.
Well just to relief stress.
So so what should we talk about.
I don’t know =/

Oh oh! Yeah I know! Wait I’ve lost it.
Hmm, can I rape someone like my teddy bear?
Okays no!! STAY AWAY FROM BURBERRY SAKINAH!!
How about ferfurry?
Girl you’re out of your mind.!

So randomly bored.
Anyone can tell me a stupid random story that has to relate to SI?Nevermind. I’ll go do my homework byes!!

2009-09-12T20:29:00.006+08:00

There’s a hundred things I want, but for now and maybe for the entire month or so, I just want to be alone. Alone and far away from everyone. I want to stay in solitude.
So you cant actually tell that I’m rather depressed right now. & to tell you the truth, I hadn’t even start on my homework. Life seems so dull nowadays. But nevertheless I’m going to try to survive it. Well maybe till I reach sec 3 or at least until I find the courage to tell my parents how I feel. Right now, at this very moment. I just want to be alone. So why cant I ? I need my friends more than ever. I need someone to talk to. And I NEED, I desperately need a listening ear, not an advisor but a listening ear.
Someone I can unload my stress on. Someone who would just listen to me for a few minutes, and understands how I feel. He/she might be the last person I would like to talk with but I don’t really care right now.

Fear and depression has tooken over my heart and it’s probably taking chrage of my whole body. I’m just a mindless zombie which cant decide for herself. Now, as I sit on this small stool, whining about something I know, no one is reading. I ask god what have I done to deserve this? Yeah I know I’ve sinned quited a number of times but hadnt I had enough of all of this? Do you want me to die like this? I’m so sorry I’m being rude to you, but please answer my prayers. Just for this one time. Lead me to the light, and let me realised what I’ve done.

Okays sup sup, I’ll stop sulking.. I’ll try to stop sulking. Hmm should I start doing my homework or should I just continue doing nothing for the rest of eternity and then just get detention?

Detention kind of sounds nice, for the fact that I’ll be in school and away from the you-know-what. Sigh sigh sigh, I cant stop sighing it’s rather funny though.
So yesterday I read this book called. “The McGowan Boys” and then I realised I read a book called “The Year Nick McGowan Came To Stay”. Well the concept was rather the same. For the McG boys, Megan had to stay with this clan for boys. 7 boys actually. You have Sean,Evan,Finn,Doug,Miller,Ian and caleb. Hahas nice names. And aparently Finn kinda sounds like my dream boyfriend. Though I’ve found him (;
You couldn’t imagain who and the best part is his like my BFF but he doesn’t know it and I prefer if he doesn’t know I like him cause he likes this other girl. See what I mean as in love is cruel.
Well blah blah. For the story Nick McG came to stay, He had to stay with this girl called Zoe. So same concept random stranger came to stay with you, at first you didn’t get along but then somehow a miracle happened and they became best of frineds and they fell in love and blah blah. It’s a teenage romance comedy book so yeah.

And I borrowed 3 other adult novels. “The importance of being married”, “Wedding sedan”, “Special delivery”. It seems like I’m lovesick. Well that’s the point. I’m lovesick, and disheartened by my parental units. Ella Mental and the good sense guide. I’ll survey you girls some books.

1. the year nick mcgowan came to stay
2. The mcgowan boys
3. red sky in the morning
4. Ella mental and the good sense guide
5. The abc’s of kissing boys
6. Girls for breakfast (maybe the boys also can read for fun, it’s quite erotic :D )
7. luurve is a many trousered thing
8. angus, thongs and full frontal snogging
9. Are These My Basoomas I See Before Me?

Okay a list of many books.
I want to show you a pic of a drawing I did just now :D

okay so first pic is my try out and the second one is the finally :D

Hmm blog again later

2009-09-11T10:27:00.001+08:00

This is stupid!
Bloody fucking stupid!
Why cant my dad just let me go out to the library to study with ira.
Why is he so stubborn!
My mom let me go out and stuff, cause she understands me!
Easy to say, my mom and me are alike.
It’s just that I’m more open and she only shows her feelings towards some people.
And my mom understands that at this age, I need some freedom!
My mom had a great teenage life.
She should know this stuff best.
My dad is so boring and it’s as if the world revolves around him.
I can’t wait till I shift houses.HDB hurry up and build the damn house!!!

Random

2009-09-10T22:29:00.000+08:00

Well this post is for my 5 friends.
Clara, Ira, Natalya, Rahayu and YuChuen.
You guys are seriously the best present I can ever get.
Maybe we had our ups and downs, out fights and apologises, but we’re still friends in the end (:

Clara I know it’s been difficult for us to meet or sometimes talk to each other and I’m sorry if I stressed you out.
Maybe it’s just because I’m afraid of losing you as my friend.
It’s been really a long time since we met and I don’t know!
I just feel guilty sometimes.
You are like my angel send by god.
You’re always there for me.
Remember last year?
We fought so much!
Remember what you said?
You said that our friendship was as hard as a diamond.
Clara I’m sorry if I’m bugging you, but I just want to tell you iloveyou & you’re forever my best girlfriend ever!!!!

Ira Adriana!!!! Woots!
Girl you’ve been my friend since god knows when?
I’m so grateful to have a friend like you!
A religious and decent kid, whom is good at her studies & always cheerful!
Thanks for all the religious advice and the other advices too (;
Btw what your blog url!?!?!

Nat Nat!
Cool you’re in melaka right now.
So badd never invite me.
Kidding!!!
So when id the next time are we going to meet?
Can I go to your house?
It’s like so coool!
2 stories high!
Play hide and seek?
Or catching?
Gosh I miss you! I still owe you a present :X

Rahayu are you okays?
You seem so moody these past few days?
You never even bothered to reply me.
Hey cheer up okays?
A pretty girl like you, shouldn’t sulk!
It’s bad for your health.
I know most probably you’re asking me to shut the fuck up but heys!
I care for you alrights.
If you need me, just call (:
I’m always there for you.
Actually I’m always there for everyone!! :D
Yozz YuChuen!!
Erm, hahas sorry for spamming your phone & msn.
Got a bit overboard. Actually I got really OVERBOARD!!
Want to say thanks to you for cheering me up(most of the time).
You’ve been a really nice friend.
So the first time we met wasn’t really erm you know..
But at least we’re 50/50 alright with each other?
Okays who I’m I kidding?!?!?
Man I’m soo annoying!
I know, you don’t have to say it!
Oooh I’m soo sorry!
Sigh I don’t know what else to say.
=/

Wait I know!!

WHY I’M I SOO FAT & CHUBBY!?!
YOU GUYS ARE SO LUCKY TO HAVE A HIGH Metabolism rate!!!
Not like me >.>
So lowww. Eat so little grow fat!!!
Argh!!!

Hahas. Nevermind , I got to live with it T.T
Well good luck for your end of years exams !!!

2009-09-05T21:04:00.016+08:00

Yeah like i mentioned. Some pictures and videos!!!!

2009-09-05T14:25:00.004+08:00

Goodie Goodie!
I've got so much to tell you guys!

- Common Test4 Results
- Plurk
- Choir Exchange!!! (woots)
- How's my life (:
- An a thank you to my friends!

So let me start this long post of boring random shit!
Well it depends if you're even reading this.

English; A1 (80marks)
Mathematics; B4 (60marks)
Science; D7 (44 marks)
Mother Tongue; C6 (50marks)
Geography; A1 (80marks)
Home economics; C5 (56marks)
Literature; D7 (44marks)
Art; C5 (58marks)

So i got horrible marks.
TIME TO START MUGGING FOR E.O.Y EXAMINATION1!!!!!

Need to buck up on MT, Science.
Re-read literature book, and brush up on the rest (:

I'm in love with plurk! It's been only 5 days and the karma reached 30!
Woots! I can keep track of myself. Quite cool. And guess wad i loooooove my plurk layout!!!!

Choir exchanged finish a few hours ago and it was SO fun!
The choirs that Participated were

-Bedok Town Secondary
-Compassvale Secondary
-Coral Secondary
-Guangyang Secondary
-Greendale Secondary
-Regent Secondary
-Serangoon Secondary
-Tampines Secondary

Guangyang Sec is my school's choir partner!
Which is honestly is a bad thing..
But their Choir T-Shirt is SOO COOOL!
It's like a plain white T and the word CHOIR written in blue, it covers half of the shirt and the school abbreviation GYSS.
We played quite a few games and GYSS choir has many Sec 2 students.
And I kind of insulted one of them cause I thought she was Sec 1. And I was mistaken for a secondary 3 student many time =.=”
We played with this newspaper and cards.
I took some pics.
I got the whole performance video.
And lastly we danced to the song nobody!
It was super duper fun too bad GYSS had to go home early.
And there is this girl from Compassvale that I wanted to ask for her number but didn’t manage too.
And I spotted this awesomelt cute guy in Coral sec.
Soo cute!!!
Got angry with bitch cheryl. She is so bloody annoying. Jeanic also very annoying.
If a meteoroid killed them, i would be jumping for joy and I'll 100% host a party.
But what Mr.Lim said quite true the other choir he conducts quite erm rowdy and they kind of look scary. Ahaha well it’s alright. Don’t judge a book by its cover wont ya.

My life is still the same.
It has its small ups and big downs :’(
But I won’t brag about it.
Right now I just have to get all the work done and stay away from trouble.
Hari Raya preparations and my dear examinations!
They clash!!!!!
OH MY FREAKING SCOTCH TAPES!!!
Got to compromise a lot!!!
STRESS STRESS STRESS!!!!

Someone care to mug with me?
Please inform me please!
Thanks!!!!

I want to say thanks to Clara, Ira, Natalya, YuChuen, Klarance and some of my classmates.
Without Clara I wouldn’t be where I am now. I would most probably be dead in hell.
My girlfriend and Kiddo!!! Loveya soo much! Don’t forget me ya’.
Ira you are my longest friend! And I’m so happy were still friends :D
Thanks for encouraging me when I’m feeling low and thanks for everything!
Nat Nat you are awesome! No matter what happens you just have that special magic that makes me happy no matter what situation I’m in!!!!! Woots!!!!
YuChuen I don’t know what to say. So sorry. First time we met both of us just couldn’t get along cause I was spoiled and you were a bit naughty. But in the ends we managed to be friends again. Thanks for your wonderful advice and SORRY IF I SPAM YOUR INBOX!!!!
You got to get used to it..
Well for the meantime xD
Klarance you’re a nice guy to talk to so thanks?
Ahahas random.
To my classmates thank you ever so much for being there for me.Specially the boys, Cheryl soh, yingyin, xinyi, jiamin!

Guess that's all for now. Want to paint the room!!

2009-08-31T20:55:00.001+08:00

This post is dedicated to my trusty little Kiddo friend Jeff.

Well maybe ex friend. I’m not pretty sure; he won’t talk to me.

So Mr.Tew this post is for you (:

So it’s like already 4 months or so & I reckon you hate me don’t you?
Ahh it’s all right. I’ve gotten used to this kind of stuffs. Actually it has become a random thing for me.
Well I’m just freaking sorry.
I don’t have any rights to scold you cause you didn’t plan all of this.
& I should really stop thinking of myself.
So yeah, you suffered more than me.

It’s my fault isn’t it?
Oh gosh I’m sorry, hahas well maybe I’m your jinx.
So it’s better we avoid each other.
Though it’s going to be a bit difficult; we can never be too sure.
We’re in the same class, same school and you’re friends know that I used to like you.
I’m not going to blame you.
It’s not you’re fault and neither is it mine.
It’s natures’ fault (:
All right maybe not!!!
Ohh I just sinned.
It’s my fault I guess?
Not sure.
Okays this is going out of hand.

I don’t know what to say.
Erm. You’ve been a really great friend and I appreciate what you’ve done for me.
But I guess our friendship got to end.
Because of some things.
You’ve had enough of all of this and so do I.
So erm maybe I’ll just say this once and never again “Jeffery, I really love you. But that was a long time ago. Before anyone knew and I didn’t really realised I liked you till that day I got drenched by the rain. Sorry for the sins I made and sorry for wasting your time. Sorry for making a nuisance out of you too. So now I’m just sitting down here waiting for your reply, but you just wont talk to me. I guess I deserved this cause love has faded. And to remain as friends are ever so hard. Well bye..”

Well I’m not going to continue crying here.
Let bygones be bygones and never be heard of again.

Anyone care to talk to me before I burst out crying?

2009-08-30T20:53:00.001+08:00

I miss him,
Yes I do,
Love is so indirect!!!

Alright, time to let the cat out of the bag.
Jeffery I’m so sorry cause I Think I used you.

When Donny and I ended our friendship, I just couldn’t take it.
So I decided to look for someone else.
I decided why not fall in love with you.
You seemed so nice at the beginning.

And you were like my ever bestest friend.
But you know as days pass I just got a bit clingy and it became obvious I liked you.

DISASTERS STRUCK!
AND I’M STAR STRUCKED!!!

Remember how I used to brag about donny to you?
I guess I made you pissed cause you used to scold me back then when I talked about donny.

Sigh. I don’t know what to do?
I like Jeffery without me knowing why but Donny’s like my so-called dream boyfren though I know I wont get him.

Living in this mad world I feel like quitting this game.
All I did has become to waste.
All those years of flirting, what’s the used if I was good looking and a great flirt it would be a good thing.
But look at me?
I’m like some crazy/mad women.

Seriously I give up on love.
I give up on you.
I give up on Donny
& I’m giving up on being a sadist (:

Well enjoy the years before it’s too late.
Life’s a journey not a destination!!!

TO: Jtwx&Co.

2009-08-29T23:52:00.000+08:00

Jeffery I can’t stand it anymore.
Can you and your friends please leave me alone?!
I mean what the bloody hell do you want with me?

I seriously had enough of these tricks.
So what.
I USED to like you!!!
Take note of the present tense.
I had enough of your blood fuck attitude.

You use to be a very nice guy but as days pass by you’re no different than the other boys I knew.
& I already told you I’m ending this friendship.
Wait a minute, I already did.
But somehow you managed to get my friendship back.

Oh well I’m all right with that. Just as long you stay away from me.
FARRRRRRR AWAY FROM ME!!!

I mean it. I don’t want to talk to you or even see you.
You’re like an invisible guy to me.

& Other than that please wake up your friends’ ideas.
Don’t ever call me “Mrs Tew” cause I don’t like you anymore.
There is no fucking way I’m ever liking you!
Hear that “NO FUCKING FREAKING BLOODY WAY I’M I FALLING FOR YA!”
Go dig a grave and jump into it.

Cause if you’re not going to do that.
I’ll drag you to hell and trust me you will never get to see the daylight ever again.
I’ll make sure you’ll cry on the spot.
I’ll spare you no mercy.

Think about it?
What wrong have I done to you?
To make you treat me like this?

Was loving a guy a sin?
Was caring for your friend a sin?
Was seeking for help or comfort from a friend who was busy gaming a sin?!

Then just please enlighten me what wrong have I did?

I always helped you when you’re in need but what about me?
I’m not being egoistic but it’s a fact?
What have you ever done for me?

Jeffery just please look at what you’ve done.
You yourself said I was a fragile girl.
& You still dared to treat me like this.
Wake up your idea boy.
Cause sooner or later your going to regret.
Do you feel happy if you’re crush treated you the way you and your friends treat me?
Think about it please.
Stop relying on computer games and grow up!

GROW UP!!!
You’re 13. Officially a teenager.
Stop acting like you’re 11.

Mix with the wrong friends and you’re future is gone.
Huh, so I guess you’re future is gone.
& I wouldn’t be surprised to see you ending up in trouble.

Get that smirk of your face darling.
It’s going to cause a lot misery.

Well I hope you read this and start waking up your dead mind.
Cause I didn’t spend crying and typing this out for nothing.
Cry and cry that’s all poor sakinah can do.
I’ll cry as long as I want to!

So what if I’m insane?!
It just makes me special.

Jeffery I’m sorry but you’re just darn it history.
Forgive & forget?
NO WAYY!
FOR YOU I SHALL NEVER DO THAT & CROSS MY HEART I PROMISE THAT.

#! ♥ - Do you feel like a man, when you push her around?

2009-08-26T21:12:00.001+08:00

This few weeks are so tiring and stuff.
Maybe i'll blog sometime later.
Go find a simple looking skin first.
Muahahah!
Byes.
(:
Dont miss me cause this blog is dead and deserted anyways!!

2009-08-23T22:40:00.002+08:00

sorry,
for not blogging about a month or so.
Kind of tied up with studies.
Well i got to go.
Bye!!!!

Random me (:

2009-08-04T20:22:00.003+08:00

Random of me.

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(:

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Finally after 1 hour!!!

To your misunderstatment

2009-07-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

Before there are more fights, riots, war and most importantly MISUNDERSTANDINGS.

I want to say sorry to soeui.
Okay so maybe from day 1 we cant get along together.
Well I don’t like to compromise and so be it.
Not many people can take my attitude and I know that.
DON’T HAVE TO REMIND ME A 1000 TIMES!!!!
I mean I know that I wont make many friends with this fucked up attitude.
But some people like me for who I am.
Cause I’m nit that fucked up girl I seem to be.
I can extremely nice.
Nicer to how I am being to Jeffery.
I have high standards, I’m proud and I’m self-obsessed.
So no need to tell me la.
I brag about myself.
WHY?
Cause no one want to tell their stories.

Hey I’m sorry. Its not that I don’t like you.
It’s your dear darling that I don’t like.
She’s a pain in the neck and I can say not many people like her.
I’m perfectly fine with you.
But if you’re going to treat me like an idiot with no EYES OR EARS.
I’m just going to treat you like a slave.
And if you are going to start a war prepare to cry and suffer, no regrets.
Cause I never lose.
You can ask anyone.
I hardly lose my fights.

You started this, now face the music.
All I did was played along.

Taste your own medicine Kidd.

Love and lust are not the same. (Part 2)

2009-07-26T12:17:00.002+08:00

I don’t want to brag about this topic.
But I just can’t help it.
So yeah, to love someone and to lust.
I think nowadays love doesn’t really exist only lust.

I mean guys only go for girls who are pretty and girls go for boys who are hot.
I really think the world is falling apart and the chemistry between many people is fading.
And I think chasing for someone who looks good isn’t good for our health.
I mean what makes you think you will get the guy.
And the fact that he's hot makes other girls chase him too.

So technically your not the only one lusting that guy.
Oh great now everyone’s chasing him.
Disaster strucks! When he gets a girlfriend.

Let’s imagine the guy’s name is Timothy
And he’s girlfriend is Dehila

Because of the depression of the other girls.
Dehila gets murdered because those other physcotic girls think they have a chance with timothy whe dehila is perished.

But when timothy finds out. He’ll start to hate those other girls.
As of that time, the rule will apply to this hot, handsome, cute, innocent guy who will sooner or later be murdered.

WHY?

This phrase will tell you why “If I cant get him, no one cant!”.
Ahaha remember that phrase I used to use that phrase with my friends over sweets and I ended up sharing it or throwing.

But they cant cut timothy into pieces and share him or just kill him, get over it and he’s gone.
Nothing to fight about anymore.

I find it stupid, cause those girls only lust timothy and not love him like dehila did. In the end both gets killed.

For example. Sometimes you see a hot or cute guy on the street with he’s girlfriend. And the girlfriend is fat or ugly or whatever.
And you say the guy’s crazy or stupid or blind.
Do you really think he is?

I don’t think so, I have to agree that my best friend(s) do that.
Critisize those kind of people but come to think of it I think my friends and I are jealous cause we cant get a guy to LOVE us the way we are.

Everyone has their dream boy/girlfriend.

Like my dream boyfriend is a tall guy, who has thick fluffy CURLY brown hair, wears specs, bambi eyes(not to small but sparkles under the sunlight), funny, understanding , loyal, respectful, classical , and maybe sensitive, secretive and keeps stuff to himself.

I don’t like boys who plays computer games, and is too modern I rather have a countryside boyfriend than a city one.
That’s why I plan to move to new zealand, it’s a peaceful country and the guys there are just amazing!

I want to live in a normal house in NZ but by the seaside or countryside where I can treasure god’s wonderful gift of nature.
And when I grow up I want to be a song composer or a singer.
Because I enjoy it. And maybe I don’t mind being a writer.

I love reading and letting my imagination run wild.

Beauty outside can never be compared to the inside.
Hmm I want to start a story blog anyone want to help?

Love and lust are not the same. (Part 1)

2009-07-25T15:38:00.004+08:00

Well i'm going to talk about love versus lust.
First compare love and lust.
They are two different things.
Its hard to love someone but it's easy to lust someone.
Eg. i can lust any hott boy that passes by me.
But i cant fall in love with him cause i dont know him.'

My favourite phrase "DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER!"

Hmm but then i want to stress that i'm not who i am in school.
Neither when i'm outside school.
Like yesterday i wanted to give jeffery he's present after i went back from the esplanade.
But the moment i saw him i froze and decided to back away cause he looked tired and in a way not he's usual self.
So then the drama queen in me started up some bogus on trying to flag a taxi for about an hour and failing. And i was shouting at the top of my voice.
So see what i mean.
Because of that prince i actted like a dufus because i kind of wanted to embarrasse myself infront of him so he thinks i'm weird.
But if you really knew me, you would think i'm lying with what i stated above.
Ahahas XD

Okays back to the topic.
So to love and lust is two different things.
Like me i dont lust anyone.
I used to love Yaqzan cause he was a really nice guy and he was extremely funny.
But i grew up and got bored of him.

Donny, oh that sweet name. I loved him like i never loved anyone before.
Believe it or not we fell for each others trap.
Prince flirt anf Princess flirt were falling for each other but i told him a white lie so there goes my chance and guess what he was still crazy over julie and i was still goo goo gaa over ____ at that moment. Well that was love not a random crush.

Since then i didnt really fell in love with anyone.
I liked ZiJian but let go when i found out he was in the same class as clara.

My life is a coincidental life. Everything is related, no matter what happens.

Back to the point.

And how hard is it to love someone.
No one is perfect but seriously, to love and to lust.
Think about it.
Example me!
I'm fat. Okay not that so fat i'm boderline overweight and i'm fat.
Exclude how i act in school.
But do you think anyone would love me.
100% wont lust me. Its like so obvious.
But to love me for who i am that's very hard.
To add on i'm a girl with 7 different personaltites.'
Meaning its like falling in love with 7 diff girls that look the same.
Get it!

But than if i was super pretty and hot.
With my same SCHOOL attitude i would still be adored by many guys.
Cause i've got looks.

So those guys lust me not love me.
So what's the use?
Its like you think he likes you but actually he wants you as he's sex toy =.=
Dont you find that disturbing.
I sometime think that some girls are idiots cause they wanna look nice on the outside but they're attitude sucks like hell.
And that's why we have prostitudes in pubs.

And i think for once i'll agree with alastair.
Most singaporeans teens think being skinny and thin = beautiful.
Hey that's not true!
Would you wanna waste life being raped or fucked for free cause your thin skinny and pretty.
If you do than might as well join those idiots.

I'm fatttt!
Yeah i am though my friends tell me i'm not.
Uhh okays luhh.
I'm not that fat.
Using UK12 or UK13.
Uhh i think i'm fat.

Nevermind that but i'm just bored with people saying they love someone cause they are hot.
Thats not love that's LUST!

Love versus lust which would you choose?

I'll rather love a guy cause he loves me back and that we like each other's personality not how we look.

Maybe i have to admit i USED to like jeffery.
I adore he's personality but not anymore.
Not that much.
He's like in the middle of attention and everyone likes him.
I dont like popular people.
And that devil is like flirting with him.
I'm not saying she is flirting with him.
Its just that i think she is.
Well i'm jealous so yeah.

Because of that she wants to start a war.
Eh dont mess with me.
I can kill someone without me knowing so dont make me do it.

Anyway i'll countinue later my mom is nagging at me.
Someone want to sponsor buy me a laptop and a house in NZ.
I'm bored of my parents...

I drew a picture on the computer (:

2009-07-25T12:18:00.001+08:00

Well there's the picture. Wonder if its nice or not. Help me judge thanks. (:

Birthday Bash ?

2009-07-23T22:24:00.007+08:00

Well not really much happened today,
In the morning I was panicking to school as per normal.
Cause I was late. Went out of the house at 6.45am and reached around 6.55am.
I got chased after a cat when it saw the cake.
Oh ya I got grounded by my dad cause of my phone bills so don’t call me anymore, just sms.
My dad and I are still sulking so heck care.
Then in school I chased Brandon and some other off my table.
And jeevan was like OH MY GOSHING over the cake.
And Brandon was like chatting away about Jeffery or something related to that prince.

Notice when I called Jeffery a “prince”.
I’m not like so called relating him to the Queen Bee’s of the class but I think in a way Jeffery is like the most popular guy in class and he’s being treated royalty.
I mean how often I’m I damn nice to a random guy, most likely I won’t even talk to him.
Well he did treat me nice so I’ll do something in return.
Hey don’t get the facts wrong. I am not in love with Jeffery. I seriously don’t like like him. Just like as a friend.

Back to my randoming.

Then the Queen Bee came into the class!!!
OMG! I’m dead.

Anyway I prefer calling her the devil.
Just for fun and amusement.
Muahaha.
Seriously this girl misunderstands too much and she expect too much from others.
I mean I get the fact she’s older than us but please, at least respect us young kiddos (:

Back to the part where I turned dead!
So after a while I went out of the class to look as the scenery.
I love the scene in school.
Its darn super duper uper hupper nice!!!

I spotted YingYin at the don’t know wad place la.
And saw Jeffery with teng siong.
I decided to say “happy birthday” for fun and see if I had the guts to say anything to him.
And he just likes blindly walk away.
Psycho guy.
Ignore me, I ignore him like hell also good.
But then he won’t notice.
Haiz.

I ran towards YingYin and walk back to class.
Start stoning for a while and don’t know what I did.
Skip that part.

Fuck! My legs numb. Ahaha.
Anyway we skip skip till there was this part where YingXuan said that I was very happy cause today Jeffery birthday.
Then after saying that still want to see the cake.
Take note my sense of hearing is freaking good.
So I can hear those queenies behind me.
I’m not deaf all right.
I was born perfectly.
Excluding the stupid disease I have and stupid breathing probs which cant be resolves.
Saddies.
Other than that I’m perfect the same as you guy.
Wait wait I got this stupid mental problem.
I’m not crazy it’s just that I have this disease where I’m emotionally disturbed and utterly depressed.
So other than that I’m normal.
Hahas.
Defy normal I’m like an abnormal kid trying to be normal and ending up being nothing but failure.

Yeah so I had geography lesson, which were cool cause I passed by 8 marks.
25/35 is like 71%
Cool right.
I LOVE GEOGRAPHY!!!!!
Lol.

Had literature where I was too excited.
Maybe because I decided to show my inner self which is obviously disturbing.
It was as if I had a sugar rush.
Though I do get bad sugar rush the moment I taste it (:
Must be the smell of the molten cake xD
We had early recess and I decided to eat for once.
Had a sandwich and two bottles of water.
Pretty much dehydrated.
My left toes are so numb that I can bend it backwards and feel no pain.
Crazy girl me.

I guess after that had math test, which I screwed up on cause I was busy daydreaming what life would be with Lewis alive and my husband.
That would be awesome I’ll drag him along everywhere I go.
Missing him like shit and its been 8 years since I’ve been with him.
Today is like our anniversary.

Back to my story.
During Malay I totally freaked out on the presentation.
I had to present first and that prince was like directly in front of me, which is rather annoying in a sense that everyone thinks I like him.
I mean I don’t like like him neither does he what’s the big deal?!
We are just friends!!!!!
I’m a nice girl maybe too nice ahahas.

So presentation wise was Okays but too nervous.
It started out all right but then the dumbo(s) infront freaked the life out of me.
Had that butterfly in your stomach feeling.

And afterwards was CME.
And lastly party time!
I actually had no mood to celebrate cause yesterday I fell sick and I accidentally cut myself. Well it’s more to poke yourself in the stomach.
And it bleed. Not much just a little.

I think the boys had to drag Jeff down.
If he hadn’t show up I would have ran to him with the cake and smash it on he’s face.
If he gets angry so be it lor.
I heck care when he’s angry I cant be bother.
Though sometimes I do bother.
So we tried to light up a candle but failed.
And then he cut the cake.
I think the sentence can be rephrase to “Jeffery and Boon Wee cut the wedding cake”.
Ahahas kidding but boon wee was holding on the Jeff’s hand and cutting the cake so funny.
Was cutting it when I noticed they don’t know how to cut cake.
So took the knife and ask to cut at the bottom.
Tried to only touch the knife and not his royal highness.
But who cares.
Then everyone rushed to the cake. I took one small piece cause I scared get sugar rush again.
Firman eat like so much.
So yeah they made a big mess.
Had to clean it up.
Brandon was so evil.
He said something to Jeff like always the mom help clean up, now the wife help.
I was like what the hell?!?!
In my mind I was like saying to myself I rather marry Alastair than Jeff.
Hahas
Then before Jeffery left I go throw some cake crumps onto him.
Clean table and asked jian hong to look for an auntie to help clean the floor.
I was about to tip the auntie $5. But she say can’t so okay la.
I think jian hong is a great guy.
He’s in a way nice and I think Jeff should really treasure him as a friend.
But I don’t think Jeff is that observant to reality.
So never mind.

Go home change and bla blah skip.
Then during choir saw Rachel and surprised Duncan at the media lab. BTW Duncan never get eat cake so sad.
OI FIRMAN EAT SO MUCH NEVER GIVE DUNCAN!!!!

We went down for PT after temp taking.
Play captain’s ball.
And I managed to catch the ball 2 times.
Apparently I didn’t look like I was sec 1 so no one pass to me.
T.T
And I think the conductor not that bad la.
He’s a nice guy.
And I think he noticed I have great vocal other than that I’m just blur sotong.
Haahahs.
SO that’s all.
Bye!

Some pictures.

I wonder if it was a wedding cake? Haha Boon Wee and Jeffery are married?

I plead to see the day where these two defy the law of nature and get married.

Lighting up candles were of no use.

Some random pics

Nice hor i bake the cake. xD

2009-07-23T21:11:00.001+08:00

Happy Thirteen Birthday To Jeffery Tew Wei Xiang (:

2009-07-18T15:48:00.000+08:00

1.The person who asked me to do:
Tedd & Nickk

2.Your relationship with him or her:
Bestest of friends & penpals

3.Your first impression on him/her:
They are hott!!!

4.Your most memorable moment with him/her:
Writing letters back and forth

5.The most memorable thing you said to him/her?
Iloveyou xD

6.If him/her becomes your lover?
I’ll marry both of them on the spot!!

7.If him/her becomes your lover , what would you like him/her to improve on?
Nothing (:

8.If him/her becomes your enemy, what will you do?
Beg for forgiveness

9.If him/her becomes your enemy, what will be the reason?
I lied to them?

10.The most desired thing you want to do for her/him now are?
Hug them!

11.Your overall impression on her/him:
Great friend

12.The characteristic you love most about yourself:
My vocals and my talent to compose songs..

13.The characteristic you hate most about yourself:
My emotional side

14.The most ideal person you want to be is:
Myself like duh !!

15.For people that care and like you, say something to them:
Erm... Thank you.

16.Pass this quiz to 10 people who you want to know how they feel about you:

1. Rahayu
2. Clara
3. Natalya
4. Ira
5. Icha
6. Brandon
7. Jeffery
8. Jian Hong
9. Renhow
10. Jeevan

17.Who is 6 (Brandon) having a relationship with?
I have no idea!

18.Is 9 (Renhow) a male or female?
Male.

19.If 7 (Jeffery) and 10(Jeevan) were together, would it be a good thing?
I don’t think so. I’ll kill jeev

20.What is 2 (Clara) studying at the moment?
How to be a good girl (:

21.When was the last time you had a chat with 3 (Natalya)?
Chatting with her now.

22.What kind of music does 8 (JianHong) like?
I have no idea =/

23.Does 1 (Rahayu) have any siblings?
Her annoying bitchy act matured sister and a elder bro.

24.Will you woo number 3 (Natalya)?
Girl fuck girl? NO WAYY!

25. How about 7 (Jeffey)?
Erm no thanks. Rather fuck my pillow xD

26.Is 4 (Ira) single?
Absolutely yes!!

27.What's the surname of 5 (Icha)?
Erm dunno?

28.What's the hobby of 5 (Icha)?
Crying over boys?

29.Do 5 (Icha) and 9 (Renhow) get along well?
They don’t know each other

30.Where is 2 (Clara) studying at?
Deyi Secondary

31.Say something casual about your eyes?
They are midnight blue and brown mixed together xD

32.Have you tried developing feelings for 5 (Icha)?
Worriness.

33.What colours does 4 (Ira) like?
Not sure. I’ll ask her later.

34.Are 5 (Icha) and 1 (Rahayu) good friends?
They are all right with each other

35.Does 7 (Jeffery) like 2 (Clara)?
I will kill clara if he does!!!

36.How did you get to know 2 (Clara)?
From school.

37.Does 1 (Rahayu) have any pets?
Yeah tomy her cat.

38.Is 7 (Jeffery) the sexiest person in the world?
YEAH! LOL!!

39.How is 4 (Wei Qi) related to you?
Best friends since she was born xD

2009-07-13T20:07:00.001+08:00

I’m baking a cake for Jeffery’s birthday. But don’t worry I’m not going to poison him. Though I wish I could. Anyway I’m trying to buck up in my studies. These pass few days has been awkward. I’m feeling awfully strange. But then I’m still alive, so I don’t think its something to be afraid of. I’m currently doing my homework. So yea.

Wait for a while till I get some time. I have to do a geography mindmap and literature poster (:

Bye!

The following post was last 2 week’s post.

Okays?
Ahh my maid ex maid. Erm lets call her wati.
So wati called me yesterday night.
Around 12.16am and just now in the morning at 6.29am.
She got a new employer.
Ah that’s great xD
May god bless her life with happiness?
So we talked quite a while.
3 minutes.
She was kind of shock to hear my voice cause apparently my voice changed into a kind of lower tone.
But yeah I’m all right with it.
Hahas let’s recap what happen. But before that let me tell you something.
My eyes are officially DARK BLUE!!!
No I didn’t change it but its natural.
And my hair turned from black to Light Ash Brown xD
Straight to curly!
I love my life.

I got prove of my hair colour.
But my hair colour is different from others.
It’s like multicolour at different parts.

So Monday was awesome cause the girl I hate didn’t came to school.
I greet the teachers at the gate.
And took temperature.
Got to meet our new teachers.
And got teased by Jeffery’s immature friends (:
And mostly it was a great day in fact.

Tuesday was my horror movie day.
She came to school.
She gave me this wadeva thingy, which I didn’t really like but I’m not evil to throw it away.
I put it under my table and dropped onto the floor.
SO she thought I threw it away.
I’m not that evil okays.
Fuck if you really think I didn’t it.
SO BE IT I DON’T ENTERTAIN Fuckasses.
I had enough of Alastair I don’t need you to ruin my life too.
So it was a misunderstanding.
And she didn’t want to admit she was wrong.
Bleah I don’t really give a shit about her.
She die I also don’t care I would be quite happy though.

Wednesday was a sequel to Tuesday.
Saw her bloddy face did the same routine as usual stoning at the sky by the windows.
But I really hate that day.
Then when I step into class the fuckass started shouting.
Bla bla blah.
Next I really got pissed cause before recess cause firstly Jeffery gave me $32 without notice.
LOL I was like bloddy happy go lucky but ahaha you know me.
I had to put on a performance (;
And yea I did.
After recess I outburst.
Cause of miss fuckass and miss asshole.
Lool.
Vulgar much but who cares.
Miss fuckass shouted me to get out of the class and miss asshole said bye-bye in a cheerful way when I went out.
I ran crying to the counsellor’s room to look for help.
So I met the new counsellor. And she’s nice.
Really nice.
I told her everything.
Ahaha seriously everything.
Then there were these few boys playing a prank trying to snoop or sneak in or just eavesdrop.
I think they got a glimpse of me. And I did too.
They were fucking hott!
Woots!
Then my counsellor said the boys said that the girl in the room look chio.
Lool.
I do agree I look quite nice when I’m not wearing specs.
But I guess only the matured boys can tell that.
SO thanks anyway it turned my frown upside down.
I felt much better.
But then got P.E I never do.
I was actually supposed to walk 6 rounds.
But then I was pissed and cast a spell.
I get angry and curse anything there.
So yea I did the 666 spell.
Ahaha don’t know if it worked.
But I was so pissed I started running at that point I was casting the spell.
When I finished the spell I noticed that I was breathing but not air but blood.
Cause after I left school I saw that there was blood on my uniform.
Nose and mouth.
And I vomited blood before that too.
The other thing I was called by my teacher to stop running. I pointed out something I saw.
No one bothered.
Cause I saw a girl in red staring at me with a boy in black at her left.
Scary.
I ran out of school in a hurry.
I guess the spell did work.

Thursday.
Hmm I can’t remember what I did.
But I know I did talk to miss Shang in the morning and class deco at the end.
Talk to miss eng.
I honestly don’t know what I did.

Friday
Ahh. Not much. Just that jealousy and anger took over me at school.
I decided not too spend more than $75 on Jeffery.
$50 for cake and $25 on present.
Ahaha.
Too bad. He’s friends really bugged me out.
And SoEui stay away from him, don’t act so goody goody too shoo.
He’s mine!

Okay you know what I admit.
I do have a crush on Jeffery.
But love is fading away.
I like him more than any guy I ever met.
But then I think he likes another girl so it’s Okays.
Sooner or later I will get over him.
Promise.

……………

lalala. Wait hor.
Later at night I post.

2009-07-12T15:58:00.002+08:00

Someone deleted my blog achieves. So yeah i have to restart again. On the bright side. My blog is open (: